I can really relate to the "older I get the more afraid I become sometimes" I used to the craziest thing and never had a worry, like I lived in a bubble or something. Guess maybe childlike innocence and being more in touch with our intuition has something to say for this. Maybe the more responsiblities and life altering changes that are presented in our life, the more cautious we become. It is such a lila though, because we are not the ones even driving our own car, we just think we are.

I am hearing alot of people going this situation. Where their heart and intuition is telling them something very strongly, even though it does not or may not make much sense logically. And almost like their is just no choice, because the heart is speaking sooooo loudly. I am going trhough this myself actually. I am about to make a very life altering change in my life, it is speaking sooooo strongly in my heart and in my intuition, there really is no more space to look backwards and stay in the situations i previously have been in because i must step forward into this big unknown. Though logically, i am getting caught up because logically what is about to take place in my life does not make much sense. I know Amma is there in all of this, I feel Her very strongly, I guess I am just very limited in my perception of what is about to happen. I am trying to see the whole picture of things though the painting is not finished yet. I need to just remember that God paints the most amazing masterpieces!! So just having faith that this picture, this life altering change in my life is going to turn out just as beautiful as all the other huge unknown things that have taken place in my life.

Nice satsang to start the day with Madhurima ;o)

"I have a friend who just came from amritapuri staying with me who is also a student of jyotish. It all started just before her arrival. She's discovered that jyotish has no merit when you are with a satguru as they take your karma in another direction. Its more important to go with your intuition, you soul will not be satisfied unless it experiences what it came to, for "better or for worse""

Just be honest with yourself if it doesn't pan out. What I mean is, don't go looking for 'proof' of your intuition to justify it, if things don't happen. I've known too many people that have gone on intuition and it only leads to delusion and running in circles. They never learn this until their good karma runs out and their 'intuition' is revealed for what it is. Good karma lets us make mistakes and not pay for them, with or without a guru.

The idea that "jyotish" has no merit when you are with a satguru is not completely true. Jyotish is not completely accurate, either.
Best of luck to you, M.

tom

as for jyotish...it's entirely subjective, like Amma's directions. What she tells one devotee is completely different for what she tells another. I find myself plunging into astrology only to realize that it holds me back and that I must live according to my higher knowledge, feelings, intuition whatever you want to call it.